Yesterday morning I woke in a massive panic. I must have been dreaming of Thanksgiving, & running through my to-do list.
I woke in a full on panic knowing I have of a frozen… rock solid turkey and it was TUESDAY!!! There is no way it would have time to thaw for Thursday’s family supper. I sat down after putting the coffee on and came up with a “Gotta Do list that would take 3 people to complete. Think of it… actually writing legibly B.C. (before coffee). About the time I was half way through my first cup and ready to tackle the stairs to the basement freezer, my daughter text me. Good thing she did because I saw the date flash on my phone & realized Thanksgiving is NEXT Thursday. What a way to start the day! Talk about blood pressure check.
It was my wake-up call.
This past year has seemingly been one of constantly playing catch-up. I couldn’t find my routine blending the house, garden & kids.
We’ve had a few changes and family events which I now know took more of an emotional toll on me than I realized. I was letting others choices control my attitude & taking their bad behavior personally. I thought I was working through & handling what needed dealt with…yesterday morning was a wake-up call in a way…made me realize I’ve kinda shut down, withdrawn and become a bit numb.
This morning has me thinking about letting go of people & burdens that are not mine… things/activities I’ve missed that I enjoy & changes I need to make to blend them back in. Blogging I miss. Although most of my content is nothing earth shattering, it’s mine. I miss it (blogging).
Looking back through here this morning I realized I have little record of this summers garden…what worked, what flopped.
How did I miss an entire garden year?
Well, it is what it is right?
Moving forward from here with a much lighter heart.